Watch me go..

You say hello but your wink says more. I want fall for you charm but my heart won’t accept that sly look from the corner of your eye. It’s the same as the time before and behind that, the behind the back, the sneaking intertwined fingers. You’re afraid to show but pleading for me to understand, but I won’t play your game. Now your favorite view as I walk away, and my own wink over the shoulder is a low blow. Dorothy had to go over the rainbow but I don’t need a journey to know I won’t fall that low before I remember what I am not and just where I go. Take your last look darling, once I cross that bridge your options exist no more.
You’re not for me, no matter how hard I plead with myself. I would follow the world to the end of this life, but for you I just don’t have to hurt anymore. If you cut me honey, I won’t bleed, that’s the change I have made, the path, the shot in the dark only this time I finally hit my mark. Better alone that hidden, myself over the pain, I am in love with the life I lead, with or without knowing if I will ever truly be made. Watch me go Love, you had your chance but I think you finally met your match, this is my goodbye, my hello to myself my ability to be better than what I thought.
The blind no longer lead the blind, my eyes are open and the world is bright. I take it all in, a deep breath of nothing but pure exhilarated life. A kiss on the cheek, now who chases who, this is not yours to confuse. No matter how wonderful I ever thought, your ability to keep at arms distance is now far too close. Take a look, we have played our last scene, only I was a star the whole time, now I just know it and you fade. Thank you for the memories, your flattery played well, but I’m gone darling, to live the life I always knew I needed and finally learned how.